Something....

What is this sadness that aches in my life,
This feeling is so devastating that it makes me weak,
It won't get solved with me sitting around with tears in my eyes,
Happiness is what I seek.
I just need someone to hold me,
Someone to love me,
Someone who won't lie to me,
And someone who makes me feel special.
As time passes by,
I soon come to realize,
That my dreams and wishes will never come true,
And now I know why I do the things I do.
I soon stop to think if the pain will stay for a life time,
'Cuz I'm wishing you'll be mine.
This pain that I'm feeling is deep in my heart,
Makes me wonder what I did wrong,
I wonder if we could at least start all over,
Knowing you'll just say no; I'll have to remain strong.
This thing I feel burns my soul,
A fear that it'll soon become to old.
To never love again,
Don't think I want to be just friends.
This thing is melting my heart,
When I see you pass by I'm wishing that we never grew apart.
This love I have is only for you,
The guy I ever loved,
It feels so true,
There's only a few words that can express my feelings like
                                  I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

It's been awhile.

It's been a while since I posted somthing and when I do it's a while more till I post something knew. I just been really busy, but I do have good news. Recently I came upon some very old poems and a lot of them. Reading them over took me back to memory lane. I actually rewrote a lot of them and decided to take a break. A friend of mines asked me one day why I don't just type them up and then I wont have to rewrite them. I love technology  and all and thank god that it's advanced but I'm not technology lazy lol. I rather write my poems, it makes it that much personal. Plus one can always tell what mood you were really in when one reads your poems. I think that's another reason why it's hard for me to keep up with this whole blog thing. Well right now in my time zone it's late so I'll start posting things up when the sun comes up...  

timeless...

A timeless emotion,
Full of pain and fear,
Lost in the motion,
A craving that's unclear.
A whisper of sweet nothing,
With a deadly Good-Bye,
Gotta mean something,
No time to cry.
An illustrated memory,
With bitterness  that wont fade,
An end with no beginning,
A season with no change.

Became...

I once believed that everything had a happy ending.
The facts of reality proved me wrong.
I use to be so happy as a child.
Then death became part of me.
My closes loved ones left me.
I was growing up with unanswered questions.
Anger became my best friend,
              fear was beside me.
Laughter became a myth and a smile became a dream.
I lost everything from pride to passion.
My dreams began to fade and i grew stuck in this cruel world.
Hurt became my sister.
Pain became my lover.
My tears became my family.
My heart grew cold inside.
I became dead at one point in my life.
And still I live to understand why.
Nothing was able to touch me nor stop me.
I was then unstoppable.
Family became my foes.
Foes became my best friends.
My friends became strangers.
My eyes became just an illusion.
My past became bitter memories.
Then out of no where he became my HERO....