being ur self..

To be you in today’s world is hard. People start judging before they can have a chance to know you. Trying to be someone else can give you a huge weight on your shoulders. Proving to people that you are like no other is more work then a regular 9 to 5 lol. It’s sad but it's true. Then when you feel as if all is well the worse happens. You end up loosing your self and start to not even recognize the person you're looking at in the mirror. You know all of you have once or twice, hell even more then has looked in the mirror and asked who am I? Right? Lol.



You know when your in a work place you have to be different, professional. Then let’s say you make friends with someone and yall end you hanging out after work. It don't matter where, jus two ppl from work. Doesn’t'[t it feel uncomfortable in the beginning. since the only thing they know about you is how you are/act at wok. I hate that. then they start judging you, or you start judging them. why is that? why do we judge ppl first then get to know them later? is that backwards? shouldn't we know them first? Then we can freely judge them now since we know them.


I’m always being judged. Then when ppl start to know me it's always the same thing. "O, I honestly thought you were mean and rude. I thought you were the bitch here. But your honestly a good person, in and out of work." ppl has told me this so many times that now I just start to laugh. I don't even care anymore what ppl think of me. No one should care what ppl think. Thoughts and opinions of an individual are harmless. But I’ve seen ppl get highly upset over some words.


I have friends now that has later on during our friendship had the nerve to tell me they thought I was a bitch, bully, rude, mean. When I start laughing they get confused. When they ask me what’s so funny I’ll simply say, “I’m use to it". They’ll just simply look at me with more confusion. How come ppl think of me in these ways and then change their minds when they have a better understanding about me? Well, I really don't know. All I know is that I am a person who'll tell you the truth no matter the cost. If you have my whole complete honesty then that will let you know I’ll be a good friend. If we're having a conversation and I say something that I shouldn't say, just because I speak my mind weather you want to hear it or not doesn’t mean that I am a rude person or mean or even a bitch. I’m just saying what everyone is thinking but too afraid to say that. That will make me brave and again a good friend.


If you’re asking me for advice, bare yourself for the worse because even if I don't mean to so up forward with my words at least I didn't beat around the bush like your other friends. If you tell me you love this guy so much and you know he's with someone else but you can't seem to part ways with him since you love him so much. I’ll be gentle and tell you that you're stupid but the heart must take time to heal. And if he really cares/loves you he wouldn't do anything to harm you in any way shape or form, and as a friend I’ll stand by you.


Since I am this type of person why must I be judged as a mean, rude, bitch person. I guess. If that's how ppl feel then so be it. I am going to continue to be me and there's no one that can stop me...


Now remember that these are my thoughts, feelings and opinions. I am not saying that I am right or telling you how to feel. just know that I am going to say the truth my truth and if your agree that’s what up and if you don't that what’s up too... always remember never to catch feeling because of what one say. Words are words. Never give someone the chance to control your emotions or get the best of you because then they'll have the upper hand..... xoxo