what is....

what is life if it had no meaning?
what is time if you cannot see it?
what is a memory if there is no longer?
what is eternity if only fools believed in forever?
and what are we if we cannot hold each other?
what is the truth behind the lies?
the times lost which cannot be replaced.
what is a melody without a harmony?
what is a dream that turns to whatever?
what is the night without it's moon?
what are the stars without it's shine?
what is the day without it's sun?
the sky without it's clouds?
what is the passion without fire?
what is a question without an answer?

you are.... (the opposite of this whole thing)

You are the knife to my heart,
The dagger in my soul,
You are the darkness in my shadows,
A nightmare that haunt me so.

You are the pain to my emptiness,
The misery to my loneliness.
You are the abandonment to my heart,
A simple INK to this art.

You are the life I know not,
The character to this undid plot.
You are the times that were lost,
The warmth of the frost.

You are the cracked bricks to my shelter,
The hard knock life that seems forever.
You are the tears to my cries,
The fear and the lies.

You are the future that is no longer,
The glue that puts everything together.
You are the confusion in my thoughts,
The fights that were fought.

You are the whatever to my sentence,
The blocks on my path,
You are the whys to my questions,
A sadness that was never dealt.

You are the poison in my veins,
You are the sickness that I cave.
You are the bitterness that I need,
You are the evil inside me.
You are the opposite of this whole thing,
The muse to my pen and ink...

endless

Fly along side me...
For I will make your hopes and dreams come true.
Give me nothing but your loyalty...
And my heart will forever belong to you.
Love me hard but still so gently...
And I'll give you life and it'll never be empty.
Rest your head beside me...
And I will complete all your hearts desires.
Give yourself to me...
And I will Cherish you for eternity.

love

To feel love is to feel pain...
To grow passion is to become insane...
To have a peace of mind is to let love last...
Allowing to let love last is knowing that you truly grew at heart...
To let your heart beat again is to live your life for love...
No matter what, love is always there...
It is what gives you strength to get up in the morning and what allows you to calmly fall fast asleep...
Love yourself and one day love will find you...
To have a broken heart is to let the world know that you dared to love a love that was lost...
And in hope that love will come again by the same... or with a change...
                      Let love last...

That's when I'll stop loving

When hell freezes over,
When the sky is pitch black and blue,
When I no longer am your lover,
That's when I'll stop loving you.
When God calls us home,
To our sweet bitter memories,
When I'm no longer dreaming of Rome,
Free from all this publicity,
When I no longer do for you,
That's when I'll stop loving you.
When I literally cry of pain but with no tears,
When I seek only loneliness; that's one of my fears.
When I am no longer straight forward and confused,
That's when I'll stop loving you.
When I cry and beg my heart to stop,
When I am no longer me,
When I scream and yell 'cuz it hurts a lot,
When I'm farther from us then I'll ever be.
When you only speak lies and no longer the truth.
That's when I'll stop loving you...

Seasons Change....

A wall....
Feeling alone.
Trying to see but still alone.
    EMPTY....
Emotionless...
A reddish bricked wall.
No longer allowing myself to love.
    Still alone...
         Fearful...
Tired of wondering when freedom will come?
Till then... still... alone
Motionless...
Unable to move freely as desired.
         Commitment...
RUN!!!!
To much to handle.
Eyes full of tears.
Afraid to speak.
Searching and looking for the fire that is no longer.
HELP ME...
                     ALONE....
      Incomplete...
Only because you are not there.
      Troubled...
Because I am forever alone!
      Timeless....
Because love has lost it's passion.
Swimming in a pool that's empty.
Afraid to walk pass or through the wall.
I wonder... lost in thought.
       CHANGING....
Eyes open...
No, still dreaming.
But why?
Breaking through...
No care in the world.

Able to see, no longer alone.
      Full of life...
And strong with passion.
Full of life because there is forever.
Fixed but still broken.
Timeless only because I'm walking on clouds.
                 ALIVE...
Full of fire burning within my soul.
   "Let freedom ring"
I am now forever free.
I see as far as my eyes can see.
Full of power.
Since I'm moving mountains.
No longer bitter.
For I am now able.
      PEACEFUL...
   CALM...
Aroused in all ways possible.
      THINKING...
No longer in pain.
      SAFE...
        More so....
COMPLETE...
Now fully awake
Realizing that I am now in your arms.
Seeing the seasons change when our eyes met.
Melting because I am now safe in your arms.
Able to say I LOVE YOU....

I Tried...

I struggled for a very long time because of you.
I tried to ignore the signs and move on because of you.
I tried to hide my tears with a happy smile because of you.
I tried to forget about my future and lost my mind because of you.
I lost myself, not recognizing my own reflection because of you.
I made enemies and lost all my friends because of you.
I gave up on my hopes and dreams because of you.
I no longer saw me for me because of you.
I did some fowl shit because of you.
I fully lost it for a month or two.
I broke down and walked a dark path because of you!
I contemplated the end because of you!
I cried endless nights because of you.
I hid myself for a long time because of you.
I tried to make justice but failed because of you.
I tried to look pass all odds but couldn't because of you.
I tried to make good memories but ended up with bitter ones because of you.
I ran away from everyone and everything I loved because of you.
I tried my hardest to embrace the truth.
And that's when I simply gave up on you...
But I tried....